My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws and to stop this incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.
Not all toxic people are cruel and uncaring. Some of them love us dearly. Many of them have good intentions. Most are toxic to our being simply because their needs and way of existing in the world force us to compromise ourselves and our happiness. They aren’t inherently bad people, but they aren’t the right people for us. And as hard as it is, we have to let them go. Life is hard enough without being around people who bring you down, and as much as you care, you can’t destroy yourself for the sake of someone else. You have to make your wellbeing a priority. Whether that means breaking up with someone you care about, loving a family member from a distance, letting go of a friend, or removing yourself from a situation that feels painful—you have every right to leave and create a safer space for yourself.
Said goodbye to these lovely people today… As much as I will miss them (and already do), I am excited for the next part of their journey together.
Bo & Amanda… Love you both immensely and praying for you always.
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A familiar fear
Something quickly accused
Yet slowly, torturously committed
A perfect sunrise
Incapable of change and touch
So shatteringly real
Tricked by mind
To believe with heart
Something so far from reach
I will never stop being amazed at how music brings people together. Maybe not all of those people will be in your life forever but they are/were there for a reason… whether you know it now or not.
I spend most of my time trying to catch my breath… like there’s not enough air… not enough of what I need in this place. Maybe it’s because I have been running around nonstop these past few months (literally and figuratively). Maybe it’s because this place has become too small… could it be that I am outgrowing this place I have called home for so long?
Wait… that’s a good thing, right?… It should be easy, right?… Not necessarily, no. On one hand, I am so blessed to be in a place where I know I am growing both as a person and in my faith (I guess those go hand in hand)… but on the other hand, I can’t help sometimes wishing things were different… how they used to be.