A few times in my life I’ve had moments of absolute clarity, when for a few brief seconds the silence drowns out the noise and I can feel rather than think, and things seem so sharp and the world seems so fresh. I can never make these moments last. I cling to them, but like everything, they fade. I have lived my life on these moments. They pull me back to the present, and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be.
A Single Man  (via barbieandken)

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My life.

My life.

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There isn’t anyone you couldn’t love once you’ve heard their story.
Mary Lou Kownacki

Swan Lake with my mama :] (Taken with Instagram at Valley Performing Arts Center - California State University, Northridge)

Swan Lake with my mama :] (Taken with Instagram at Valley Performing Arts Center - California State University, Northridge)




I need…

… to get out of here. I need to go somewhere different… somewhere new. I need an adventure. I feel so stuck in this place… trapped within my own mind all the time. Yup… I need to get out of here…

… Care to join me??


Color Buddies!! @townlosey @profphkii @noahlb91  (Taken with instagram)

Color Buddies!! @townlosey @profphkii @noahlb91 (Taken with instagram)


I have learned, that the person I have to ask for forgiveness from the most is: myself. You must love yourself. You have to forgive yourself, everyday, whenever you remember a shortcoming, a flaw, you have to tell yourself “That’s just fine”. You have to forgive yourself so much, until you don’t even see those things anymore. Because that’s what love is like.
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today…

I’m too tired to care. I just need some time to myself. But she walks in and suddenly everything is about her… everything is on her time. Usually I’d stop what I’m doing and entertain her… But not today.


Today I still sat there quietly. Writing and thinking. She started talking about frivolous things… things I didn’t even know how to respond to. So I didn’t…


I just sat here and continued to do what I was in the middle of. Finally she left… But I don’t feel bad. I’m tired of caring for people who don’t care back.


Makes me appreciate the people I don’t have to entertain… the people who don’t have to entertain me. Those are the ones I need around me these days… To just enjoy each others’ company without the need for words… just a common understanding. I like those people. They energize me… instead of draining me from any energy I have left. And I don’t have much left.


I can’t seem to get enough alone time lately. But I can’t be around a lot of people for very long… Too bad that’s my job.



Maybe I’ll go missing for a while…


Until then…

You hurt me today… unintentionally. You hurt me everyday… But you don’t realize what you’re doing because you don’t know why that would hurt me… because you don’t know… because I have yet to tell you. But I won’t… I can’t. I wish I could, though. I wish I could tell you everything that’s on my mind and in my heart. Maybe then you’d stop hurting me. Until then I’ll just keep imagining how that would end up… how we would end up.